9/21/2010 prayers please

I haven't blogged in awhile. Life is busy! I probably wouldn't be blogging right now if it wasn't for my followers. I feel like if I follow someones blog, they should blog once in awhile! I haven't taken very many pictures, but I have had my picture taken. I have done so much since I last post. I have also done a lot of thinking. I don't like to talk about my very personal life on the internet, but what other reasons do I have? Life has gotten harder and there's no need to act like everything's okay & that my world is perfect, when it's not. But the thing is, I hate to complain. So many more people are in such worse positions than I am. But some days- I crack under pressure. Tears flow and hearts are heavy in my world now. I try to think how blessed I really am, but some days it's hard to see. It's hard to even right about it. I feel the need to break down. Just to get everything out..
I pray and ask for the strength to be strong. For myself, my family... for my friends even. I want everything to be 'okay' and I do an amazing job at acting like everything is okay. I can smile when all I want to do is fall into someone's arms and cry. For someone to tell me that everything is going to be fine. I'm so thankful for the people I have!
I don't think I will share exactly whats going on around here.. but I feel so selfish to ask for prayers. Very selfish. My world has been altered yes, but there is so many worse things going on that need prayers. But I will. I feel I need them.
Please pray for my family and myself... for strength to make it through everyday with a smile on my face that isn't always fake. For some light.. I feel things will only get worse, before they get better. I like to brush that thought away. But I it's true. Please pray..
- Nicki xo
p.s. Here's pictures of how the days are. Black & White and blurry. But love is there.


wow. what a post. tears are flowing.. prayers are need xo