divorce.

Well hello. This is a little awkward! I can't believe it's been a few weeks since i blogged! It's not the much time i guess, but a loooott has happened. Not just since my last post, but since a few months ago. When I first asked for prayers.. or even before that. It has been such a difficult pathway.. with so many tears.. i honestly can't believe it's all over. i often just stop and take a second to think how better everything is! I think it's like this for everyone family that goes through what we went though. it's different for all families. some horrible. some not. ours was.. not the best. a divorce. it's difficult to talk about.. to find the right words.. but nobody will force me to talk about it. everything was just very hard. we are a family of my parents, my brother, myself, and my two younger sisters. the toughest decision? our parents were diving us. some people would judge them and say that thats a terrible thing to do... which at the time it was a horrible horrible thing to do. but now , though still very hard, my sisters are not with us ( here come the tears!) its crazy to think that i cant see them everyday. there's regrets .. not to long ago i blogged that i was fading apart from Ellie. i regret that SO much! but like i said a million times already, it was hard. i cryed so often... im sure ellie did too. this was all weird for us. it makes sense now actually though, that they divided them two from me. i still see them. just not nearly as much. once a week maybe? twice? not enough. but i soak up there cute little faces and giggles and take pictures whenever we're together. there's not certain time of when we can see each other which i love.. im hoping to see them friday. the last time we were together was... last thursday.. :/
now that its all over.. we can all breath. thank you to everyone and anyone on here, in person, family, friends that prayed for us. it meant SO much. new chapter of life.. we're ready!
when it comes to this blog... i will probably just blog when im with them. who knows.. tomorrow could bring anything it wants to.. i learned that the tough way!
these pictures are from 11/11/2010 (last thursday). . . .



- nicki xo